Saturday December 1, 2012
Well I was served with divorce papers yesterday. One week to the day after being told she wanted a divorce. Funny how things can happen so quickly. One night we are out having dinner and on the way home I was told it was over. Talk about the last supper.
I know my drinking has always been a problem and now I am addressing it. Today is my 9th day without a drink and I am thinking somewhat clearer but the of the loss of my dear wife has only gotten worse. Why does it take such a catastrophe to figure things out. The drinking is part of it but my dear's parents were alcoholics, her husband of 24 years is an alcoholic, she had to raise her bother who had meningitis, he daughter is blind and hearing impaired and she has always taken care of herself. The one time she let's someone close they let her down .,,,,,, shame on me. I missed the forest for the trees.
We may never get back together but I owe it to you to prove that I am the man you fell in love with. If I can accomplish that then I will be able to live with myself.
